I know it’s too late, but I don’t want you to think I’m crazier than you already know I am, but this has been riding on my mind for the past 8 months now, and since I haven’t shared myself with you for a few weeks I thought I would indulge you a little.
It’s all I think about, it’s all I dream about, it plays on my mind over and over and over again like a broken record, in-fact it’s become an obsession. Is he a she or is she a he?
Help!! before I tear my hair out! My husband already thinks I’m going crazy, with sentences like “if this baby comes out a boy we’ll have to give it away and start over again” coming out of my mouth who could blame him. The thought of being a minority in my own home is driving me mad and with it being such a huge possibility, 50-50 chance in fact how could It not?
I wouldn’t be so bothered, if the stupid hospital would just tell me what is swimming around in my belly, will I be dressing her up in blue trousers or him up in purple skirts?
I try to make myself feel better with stupid logics like, well if his mum had girls 1st and my mum had a girl 1st, surely that means I should have a girl…right? wrong! I had a boy 1st remember. I’m sure if I pray hard enough, despite my many many sins the Lord will have mercy on me and give me the little girl I so desire. Right? That one could work; so every night before I sleep, I close my eyes really tight and pray, “please Lord give me a baby girl, I promise I’ll go to church every Sunday, I’ll be a good Christian, and I’ll make sure the baby grows up knowing the way of the lord, please God, please please, please. oh and lord pleaseForgiveMeForMySins. Amen. There that should sort it. I’m sure I’ll definitely have my girl now. Right? Maybe not, I already used up my bargains with God, I made the same promises when I was pregnant with my son, I begged him for a bouncing baby boy, and I go him (yay me!) and I still haven’t lived up to my end of the barging. Maybe I could get lucky..again, who knows. The Lord works in mysterious ways.
We’ll just have to wait and see, don’t worry, as soon as I know you will know. I’ll keep you informed with pretty picture.
Fingers crossed the stalk brings me a beautiful baby girl 😀